Last Splash

The gene pool could use a little Chlorine.

Not an actual list, but a more freeform rant about things I'd love to change about myself.
*Disclaimer: I am actually quite comfortable with who I am, so don't start thinking I'm down in the dumps. I just know there's always room for improvement.

Rubbernecking- yes, I will admit. I am one of those. One of those horrid people that like seeing a vivid picture of mangled cars and people on stretchers. The worse the accident, the better. I don't mind being late to work: I have the traffic excuse. It's quite disgusting, and I really wish I could stop.

The Weight Issue- no surprise to my two faithful readers. Come off it already, girl. Yes, I am overweight, and yes, if I were to gain more I would be dipping into the higher risk bracket. But I'm overweight, not grossly obese. I'm overweight in the way that most Americans are. I'm still pretty, I have clear green eyes that sparkle, and gorgeous hair that everyone comments on. I'm not acne-prone, I have nice big bouncy breasts that balance out my size-16 hips, and I have very long legs. So, why am I still hung up on weight, and why haven't I done anything about it?

Over-sensitivity- I don't really believe in all of that Zodiac/Astrology crap, but it sure is fun to read, and I do have the one major defining quality of a Cancer. Combined with the fact that my mouth generally opens and words fly out before my brain even processes the thought, this makes for disaster. I am constantly disecting and over-analyzing previous statements made to friends, my staff, my boss, my mom. Anyone that I might have a remote possibility of offending.

Smoking- please, no rants on this one. I know the health risks better than anyone (even the new ones about it's link to breast and cervical cancer). But I think Jerry Seinfeld said it best when he said "when you're holding a cigarette, it's like you have a little piece of fire in your hand. You've conquered fire." And too many NCSU games come down to the wire.

Being Right- Rarely am I the one to give in during a fight. Enough said.

Flirting- I know this bothers J immensely. I flirt with the UPS guy, his brother, our friends, and anyone else that I can. I am naturally witty. That's the gist of it. I like banter. And it also goes back to number 2...if men flirt back, it makes me feel like I'm still attractive to more than just my beloved. But I promise, I'm not going anywhere. I'm in love, and I know the difference between the real thing and harmless chatter.

Jealousy- That being said, I am extremely jealous of other women. I've tried to be better lately when J mentions one of the girls that works in his office, and once I hear enough about how she dated another guy in his office or has a boyfriend that stopped by, etc., I can totally let it go. But I used to be awful about teasing him about any woman he mentioned. "Oh, did you have a big crush on her? What'd she look like? Was she as tall as me?" etc.etc. I can't imagine what hell that was for him. I still sometimes do it, but it's more like we'll see a woman on the street or on TV and I'll cast a sly glance at him and mention that I know he was looking because she's his type. But after all the flirting, I still feel like a hypocrite.

posted by: Cannonball14 at 14:41 | link | comments (1) |

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#1  05 December 2005 - 17:55

 

other than the smoking and jealousy thing...sounds like we have lots in common. although, i will admit...i did try smoking once b/c i thought it would help me lose weight! hehe

ugapeach04

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